mr. hyde

yeah, yeah. i know i just wrote about something more uplifting, but allow me this belated rant. this entry is about 5 days overdue and maybe i should've written it when there was more of an emotional 'oomph' to it. anyway... the watered down version:

WHY IS EVERYBODY LEAVING? (at one point, this mutated into a more selfish 'why is everybody leaving ME?') pssh! whatever. this is my take on one of carlo's posts last month wherein he was asking the world to just stop. whatever reason he had for writing that, i've no idea, but it sounded like a rant to me.

so. care to answer?

it is a fact of life that nothing is permanent. that any change is bound to disrupt any sort of equilibrium that has set. just when you were getting comfortable in your bed, you have to wake up. don't get me wrong, i'm not averse to any change at all! in fact, i find that i welcome it, to an extent. gimme new experiences, new challenges, new ideas and new people! upset the balance and tip the glass over so that it can be filled again!

not just this way...! yeah, i'm whining. in case you're asking, i'm not in 'crisis mode', i'm just ranting. about why YOU never took the chance, about why YOU have to say one thing and then do the other, about why YOU aren't back here, about why i can't reach YOU, about why YOU just can't let me be, about why YOU have to leave when you haven't actually arrived yet, about why YOU and i have this weird friendship, YADDA! YADDA!

somebody please feel free to just slap me out of this reverie. oh, and in case you're wondering. THAT rant wasn't about YOU.

merry christmas!

yikes! the "-ber" months are once again upon us. you guys know how it is here in the philippines, where the yuletide season lasts practically 5 (or even 6!) months. last year, i had this little wager with Ziggy about the earliest date when i would hear the first carol. from what i can recall, i think i said that it would be on the first friday of september (i missed it by just one day! saturday morning was when i heard it in batangas). this year's carols came a little later, as i heard 'silent night' chiming out of some electronic toy at a stall in the greenhills tiangge. a few days earlier, i think i read something about christmas in the newspaper.

officially, the christmas season has begun and oh, you might say "matagal pa yan! 5 months nga 'di ba?" but before you know it, poof! the sound of (often) out-of-tune kids (ang sama ko naman!) and even firecrackers would be a distant memory. before you know it, you would be whining about the excess poundage we've all accumulated (and yet still be missing all the goodies you had). before you know it, everybody would be back to wearing their "work" faces and be all crummy and inconsiderate and irritable. before you know it, (well, 'di naman siguro... but stranger things have happened) another year might have passed and i would be writing an eerily similar message.

so there, now that you've been warned, maybe you could get a head start on your christmas shopping, for the people you care about (and some you don't care for as much) and also for yourself. maybe you could, well, go on a prophylactic exercise program for the inevitable weight increase.

or maybe, just maybe... and it really wouldn't hurt too much, if at all, to start thinking about how your year has been so far. there's still time to make the most out of the months remaining. to know where your priorities lie and recognize what the most important things are, especially... (finish this sentence!). basta. i don't wanna get mushy and all, but you get the drift. smile like you mean it and feel it, not just because it's christmas. there's a lot to be thankful for, in spite of all the negativity around.

bullets

hmm... these will pretty much be random thoughts, and i won't be thinking too much about writing something that'll blow your socks off. but if i do pull out a gem somewhere in this li'l old brain of mine, well, be glad. so here we go...

• first... why the bullet format? la lang, must be influenced by all the tables and diagrams and figures in all my books. teka... alam ko na. kasalanan 'to ni Cheche!! hehe! sulat lang ng sulat!
• similar to what's happened in the past... i've neglected this blog a bit. mas madali kasi i-maintain yung sa Friendster e. maybe i'd write stuff over there for "public" consumption and dedicate this to more personal and intimate stuff. maybe i'd put up pictures of my drawings and ambigrams there and write my stories here. maybe i would say one thing over there, with a matching *wink, wink* and pour my heart out over here. all that to keep you guys (my audience of...4?) hopping from one blog to the next.
• what is there to do now that the big bad board exams are over? tick off as many as i can from my 'life plans' list. there's reading and writing and drawing and traveling and trimming down and so on and so forth... however, there's only so much i can DO before reality starts tapping me on the shoulder again (pre-residency starts in a little over a month). another thing to do: update the life plans list in a month, complete with updates and accomplishments. so for those who know me? remind me of the things i need to be doing! :)
• watch out for the STORY of the century, hehe! (ooh... bet you're wondering what that is!)