mr. hyde

yeah, yeah. i know i just wrote about something more uplifting, but allow me this belated rant. this entry is about 5 days overdue and maybe i should've written it when there was more of an emotional 'oomph' to it. anyway... the watered down version:

WHY IS EVERYBODY LEAVING? (at one point, this mutated into a more selfish 'why is everybody leaving ME?') pssh! whatever. this is my take on one of carlo's posts last month wherein he was asking the world to just stop. whatever reason he had for writing that, i've no idea, but it sounded like a rant to me.

so. care to answer?

it is a fact of life that nothing is permanent. that any change is bound to disrupt any sort of equilibrium that has set. just when you were getting comfortable in your bed, you have to wake up. don't get me wrong, i'm not averse to any change at all! in fact, i find that i welcome it, to an extent. gimme new experiences, new challenges, new ideas and new people! upset the balance and tip the glass over so that it can be filled again!

not just this way...! yeah, i'm whining. in case you're asking, i'm not in 'crisis mode', i'm just ranting. about why YOU never took the chance, about why YOU have to say one thing and then do the other, about why YOU aren't back here, about why i can't reach YOU, about why YOU just can't let me be, about why YOU have to leave when you haven't actually arrived yet, about why YOU and i have this weird friendship, YADDA! YADDA!

somebody please feel free to just slap me out of this reverie. oh, and in case you're wondering. THAT rant wasn't about YOU.