scatterbrain

last night i went on duty at the ER. it wasn't as toxic as the usual duties.. wait, wait. what am i saying?? it WAS toxic! i didn't even get a wink of sleep or even got to eat on time! the patients just kept on comng. undercover policemen with gunshot wounds... a "crazy" (sorry for the term, yoko na masyado mag-isip) woman who got electrocuted and fell from the roof... a man with half his face hacked off... all sorts of people with each their own unique (tragic?hilarious? freaking stupid?)stories that i wouldn't be able to think up, even if i tried.

but that's not the point.

what is it with me lately? a few years back, i could pride myself with being a level-headed, extremely patient guy. these days though, it doesn't take much to get me riled up. of course, there are some instances when i'm the exact opposite. the opposite being...? infinite patience. or maybe indifference. it depends on the person or situation. (i can feel an onrush of thoughts coming.. where to start, where to start? will you be able to handle the flood??).

persons. i can never hold a grudge, i think. maybe it's the belief in the inherent goodness of everybody and giving them second, third or 225th chances. la lang. isn't it quite tiring to be thinking negative things and carrying them like the proverbial monkey on your back? hehe, i SHOULD listen to myself more often! i'm starting to believe all these things... wait. i DO believe.
sorry kids, post-duty. scatterbrain. flood. well? people. i.. don't know. blacked-out just a fe moments ago and nearly hit my head on the keyboard. again... post-duty.

but that's not the point.

i'm sure i have one. maybe i'll make it soon, by the end of this post. or i have it, but am too wasted and sleepy to say it. WHOA! blacked-out AGAIN! aw, man.. what's happening to me??
yeesh...! now, i'm really not making any sense.

but that's not the point.

it never bothered me about... aw, heck. yesterday, i told the PRINCESS about the existence of a sunrise view on xray. "...you really learn something new everyday." today's "lesson" comes courtesy of the OPD, minor OR in particular, April 13, 2005 version. one: "attitude is everything". case in point? my 3rd patient. two: "you should never be 'just grateful' or 'settle'. case in point? my 2nd patient. three: "things have a way of working out, even better than the things you expect or want to. case in point? YOU guess which patient!

that said, magpakwento ka sa akin, ikaw na nagtiyatiyagang magbasa. oo, ikaw at yung ta sa likod mo!!!!

the point being...?

ok rin ang toxic na duty 'no? lalo na pag ayaw mo pa matulog for some reason kahit alam mo dapat matulo ka na pero mas masarap ata and mag-breakfast muna (plus dessert) bago maligo at matulog pero teka muna baka may palabas sa tv na sana basketball (badtrip, reeling ang sonics) o kaya bagong music video pero speaking of music ano nga ba yung CD na gusto ko bilhin? hehe. antok. na. ako. at parang lasing na dahil kung anu-ano na lang ang sinasabi pero kung isipin mo ok rin sabihin lang kung ano iniisip mo sa punton naiisip mo sya (pano kaya and mga pikon ant madadaldal??).

the point being...???!

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forgive me... i'm pretty durn sure there's lotsa typoes (!!) in this post. bare with me. bear.. bear.
hehe, bear. i mean, bare. o, ano? what's so bad about being... transparent?? or being head over feet? or...